Welcome to the World, Islo! <3

He's here and, as expected, has changed every ounce of my life! Three months ago, I became the shocked, proud, and grateful mother of this little gift:

ISLO (EYE-loh) WILLIAM SLOVACEK made his debut on April 9th, 2016. Both my doula and laboring nurse said they had never seen a natural labor so calm and cheerful.

I don't know what it was but the day was (mostly) peaceful and just felt right.

Toward the very end, things got a little scary and stressful but he was out in three pushes and spitting up and peeing on me seconds later ;)

From his first breath, and to this day, I have been stunned and working to stay present.

It's so easy to jump ahead and imagine the future (hoping for more sleep at night ;) or dwell on the past (remembering how tiny he was). So everyday I stop myself, try to take it all in and gaze at him, amazed that this little human is my son.

(Months 0, 1, 2, 3)

(Months 0, 1, 2, 3)

The days have also become a constant exercise in surrender. I remember crying in the middle of the night early on (I didn't really sleep for two weeks but that's another story), so concerned that I would never get a day off for the rest of my life :D It took me a while to adjust to what it means to be a mother and what it means to have a tiny infant be so dependent on me and only me. I still have moments of frustration but the quicker I can understand my expectations and accept where I am and how lucky I am to be here, the better my days go. This is my life for now and I wouldn't have it any other way. <3

Islo and I are starting to get into a bit of a groove and so I see myself returning to blogging and starting to work a little bit soon. Having a baby is a new challenge to Essentialism. We have adjusting to do and adventures ahead of us and I'm excited to share them with you.

Thank you for reading!! xo